Wordless LOL Wednesday

Signed, Regular Guy

From Timbuktu to the Court House (Part 1)

Now... there I was... in my pick-up truck... by myself... in the gas station parking lot... and the epiphany hit... I had to actually make her leave or nothing was ever going to change... it would only continue to get worse... I needed some time and space to plan my attack... so I told her to pack her bags, that I would take her to the airport... buy her ticket and put some cash in her pocket... so I stopped at the atm... pulled out $500.00 that I really didn't have to spend... called the airport and paid for her flight (yes, she actually really had booked it) and I put her ass on a plane to Timbuktu!

She never said goodbye to the kids and she had not seen or spoken to them for two days prior to her leaving for Timbuktu. She didn't even ask me where they were or how they were. The following is once again taken directly from my hand written journals:

She's spoken to the kids twice over the past ten days. Sam and Daisy seem happy that she's gone. When I told Sam that she left, his responce was "GOOD." Princess did ask for her once so I called her and she immediately started in with her rediculous threats and accusations, so I hung up on her. I'm avoiding her calls, letting them go to voicemail and saving all of her crazy-ass messages.

She left the house a complete disaster. I had to put the girls' bedroom back together because she gutted it just before she left and had a brand new bedroom set delivered to the house. There is nothing wrong with their furniture. I can't afford new furniture and I'm returning it. She's bleeding me dry. I'm trying my best to take care of the kids, put the house back together and try to earn a living at the same time and I thank God for all the support that I have gotten from both my family and hers.

She is destroying my children and I will not stand for it any longer. She is mentally ill. She is physically and verbally abusive. She is totally unstable and she's due back on Tuesday. If she does come back, I must protect my children. Sam and Daisy asked me, "If you and mommy get divorced, can we live with you?" I told them not to worry about things like that and that I will always be here and I will always protect them, no matter what happens.

When Cruella left, the kids were not aware of where she was. They were at my sister-in-law Dizzie's house. Dizzie knew what was going on and I had told her that I wanted to be the one to tell the kids what was happening and why they hadn't been allowed to go home. When Sam asked Dizzie where I was, she told him that I was on my way there and he told her, "Well, I don't want to go home if my mom and dad are both there because I get scared for my dad. Mommy yells at him and hits him and says bad things about him all the time." This is breaking my heart. I'm going to the court house tomorrow and filing for an order of protection and a temporary order of custody before she gets back.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Signed, Regular Guy

I'm Baaaaaaack! :-)

Hellllloooooo..... Is anybody there!?!?

OK... So I've completely neglected this blog for about the past month... I've been on sabbatical, so to speak. Actually there has been quite a bit going on in my life and I guess that I just needed to take a little break and focus on some other things, but quite honestly... I miss writing and I miss my readers along with the blogging community as a whole and I hope that you haven't all forgotten about me ;-)

This is basically just a short little post to let everybody know I'm not dead and you can expect to here some more juicy stuff from me real soon. I've got plenty more crazy stories to tell and there been some interesting changes going on around here as well...I promise to post a good one on this coming Sunday.

Signed, Regular Guy

The Abyss of Loneliness

I haven't shared any creative writing or poetry in a while... so i thought I'd share one :-)

I wrote this several months ago now when I was feeling a bit lonely as I think we all sometimes do. It's kinda funny how you can be surrounded by people who love and support you and yet still feel all alone sometimes.

And; NO this was not inspired by Cruella ;-)

The Abyss of Loneliness

The silence deafens me as I stare into the abyss...

the abyss of loneliness...

It beckons me with voices and visions from the past...

At last...

my dulled senses begin to burn with the pain of loss...

my cross...

I grasp for the illusions created in my mind and in my soul...

the hole...

I fall into the abyss... the abyss of loneliness

Signed, Regular Guy